Amatuers and Pros – the School of Hard Knocks

“When the student is ready, the teacher will appear.” backstage during a show

That’s an old saying and one that I have found to be quite true.  I began my journey as a “recording artist” and “songwriter” in 2005.  I left the lounge and band scene to do my own stuff.  One of the first things that I learned is just how much I still need to learn.

I’m a proud attendee of the school of hard knocks.  The most authoritative person could come to me and tell me how something works, but I need to find out for myself regardless.  I don’t know why that is.  Why do I have to get kicked down on my ass over and over again before I realize that they’re right?  Perhaps I should not be so proud to be in this school.

My latest mentor takes it personally.  To him it’s a sign of my disrespect and disbelief in him and his experiences.  I’ve told him many times, that’s not what it is and that I’ve always been this way and I don’t discrminate – people get this kind of equal treatment from me across the board.  I don’t know why I’m like that.  I suppose one of the reasons is that I’ve got to “feel” it for myself.  I need to “feel” something inside of me in order for it to make sense.  Stupid to need to get the shit kicked out of you to understand and accept something on a deep level, but perhaps that’s why I was born under the sign of Taurus the Bull.  We all know that there are many walls all throughout our lives that we can bang ourselves up against until we choose to get “it.”