I’ve learned something about myself these several weeks while being idle with lower back pain. Music is who I am, it’s my identity and has been for most of my life. I can’t just turn it off like a light switch. I need the creativity that it provides for me.
When I was a remodeler, creativity was a part of me on daily basis. When I was done with a job, I got to see the finished product and got paid for it. It also gave me a sense of accomplishment and I was proud to say that I did that. Music gives me the same satisfaction as remodeling did, the only difference being is that I don’t get a dime for creating it. Ironically creating music is a lot more complex than remodeling and has taken me years of study and practice to get to this level.
Man this world’s priorities are pretty well screwed up and has been for decades. We prefer to piss away our money on cigarettes, booze and on expensive sporting tickets which we only have short term enjoyment. When it comes to supporting musicians like myself, we tend to neglect and ignore their needs even though they are providing us with enjoyment for a long time. We would rather spend 20-30 bucks on a cap or a T-shirt which is massed produced rather than purchasing a $15 c.d which in many a case has taken a musician a year or so to create and several hundred to perhaps thousands of dollars to get them on the market. Doesn’t seem worth it as far as I could see it. We after all have our priorities in pissing away our money on other stuff that will undoubtedly end up buried in the closet or flushed down the toilet.
So, I decided to write a tune today and began working on it. I decided to do so because I need the creativity and to keep my mind occupied. I’m not in any hurry so it’ll take me what ever length of time to complete it. Normally I’ll complete a tune in a couple of days. This one I will take a little longer to finish since there are no priorities nor am I making any money off of it.